Friday, May 17, 2013

Life is but an experience



What is life but an experience? Life is to see, touch, smell, taste…to feel…to love. How we experience things really depends on our perspective, and I suggest that we (must be constantly informed and educated) take things positively; after all, we are not sure of consciousness after death…although I agree with a quote which a friend has shared with me- "Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another.”

We are all born differently and we must pursue our own unique passions; and make full use of our talents.  We live in a society so we must at least be responsible for our own actions. The society has become so imbalanced between the rich and the poor and we must strive to address this imbalance.

I agree with what Krishnamurti has said being that there is no security in life… I too, believe that we must not fear change and that we should rather embrace it. We must be aware, observant, grounded and open to life.
Romantic love is for those who share the same “understanding” and lucky are they who find it. There is joy in the pursuit of stability…in domestic family life…only if the members of this family cherishes… only if know the value of relationships.

It does seem like adherence to society’s standards, and financial stability is vital for ones existence…but I also refuse to let someone else’s opinion drive my life, and I don’t want to let my life experience revolve around pursuit of wealth…not unless the journey promises to be creative, helpful to more people, and spiritually fulfilling.

My relationship with God is indeed personal and needs no further explanation. 

Friday, May 10, 2013

I don't want to be a part of it anymore



I don’t want to be a part of any of it anymore. I just don’t. I’m tired of getting angry…of hoping…of getting disappointed…over and over like a cycle. I just don’t want it anymore. I’m done. I don’t want to make sense of it. I don’t want to understand. I don’t want to think about it. I just want it to stop.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Not Feeling Well...Sick...

I'm going to be on antibiotics for a week.
I went and checked my eye too. Turned out my astigmatism angle changed. No wonder I'm feeling nauseated.

I've been eating what I want these past few weeks.
I've also started reading again.

I will start my liquid diet tomorrow.

I'm still exercising and it feels good.

Friday, May 3, 2013

Brain Training, Spiritual Cleansing, Re-direction

I have not read a book for a month.
I started viewing chess games again just to keep my thinking skills running.
I've been so busy with my body I've forgotten about my brain.

I'm going to do some spiritual cleansing too and some goal re-direction.

I found this online game which is supposed to help boost human cognition www.lumosity.com . I've been on it for the last 8 days and apparently, my strongest points are memory and speed.

I'm feeling a bit down these past few days but such is life.
I miss the love and support of my family.

I miss the family tradition...the strive for excellence...pride and honor...direction...goal oriented decisions...the sense of sensitivity and responsibility of the family members.

Sometimes when I'm still and have nothing to do...I feel lost.

But you know we are strong...and we have to keep moving forward.

More updates later.