Saturday, July 27, 2013

A couple of things done before my birthday !





Remember I wanted to do that pole dancing thing ?
I did it! Hurray !

I also graduated from the two courses I took from prestigious colleges! I still have a few more baking in the oven. 

I need a new start…I need to refocus…re prioritize…I need to breath fresh air!

I refuse to get overwhelmed by life’s inconsistencies. I want to stay out of the supercialities this society has nurtured for decades. I want to stay true to my core and authentic, after all …it is my life. But I also want to fully get back on stage! Although there’s a lot of noise in the performing arts industry, it will not tarnish my love for performing itself.


So as I was saying…. I need a new start…I need to refocus…re prioritize…I need to breath fresh air!
I have launched my life coaching services ! So exciting !


Friday, May 17, 2013

Life is but an experience



What is life but an experience? Life is to see, touch, smell, taste…to feel…to love. How we experience things really depends on our perspective, and I suggest that we (must be constantly informed and educated) take things positively; after all, we are not sure of consciousness after death…although I agree with a quote which a friend has shared with me- "Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another.”

We are all born differently and we must pursue our own unique passions; and make full use of our talents.  We live in a society so we must at least be responsible for our own actions. The society has become so imbalanced between the rich and the poor and we must strive to address this imbalance.

I agree with what Krishnamurti has said being that there is no security in life… I too, believe that we must not fear change and that we should rather embrace it. We must be aware, observant, grounded and open to life.
Romantic love is for those who share the same “understanding” and lucky are they who find it. There is joy in the pursuit of stability…in domestic family life…only if the members of this family cherishes… only if know the value of relationships.

It does seem like adherence to society’s standards, and financial stability is vital for ones existence…but I also refuse to let someone else’s opinion drive my life, and I don’t want to let my life experience revolve around pursuit of wealth…not unless the journey promises to be creative, helpful to more people, and spiritually fulfilling.

My relationship with God is indeed personal and needs no further explanation. 

Friday, May 10, 2013

I don't want to be a part of it anymore



I don’t want to be a part of any of it anymore. I just don’t. I’m tired of getting angry…of hoping…of getting disappointed…over and over like a cycle. I just don’t want it anymore. I’m done. I don’t want to make sense of it. I don’t want to understand. I don’t want to think about it. I just want it to stop.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Not Feeling Well...Sick...

I'm going to be on antibiotics for a week.
I went and checked my eye too. Turned out my astigmatism angle changed. No wonder I'm feeling nauseated.

I've been eating what I want these past few weeks.
I've also started reading again.

I will start my liquid diet tomorrow.

I'm still exercising and it feels good.

Friday, May 3, 2013

Brain Training, Spiritual Cleansing, Re-direction

I have not read a book for a month.
I started viewing chess games again just to keep my thinking skills running.
I've been so busy with my body I've forgotten about my brain.

I'm going to do some spiritual cleansing too and some goal re-direction.

I found this online game which is supposed to help boost human cognition www.lumosity.com . I've been on it for the last 8 days and apparently, my strongest points are memory and speed.

I'm feeling a bit down these past few days but such is life.
I miss the love and support of my family.

I miss the family tradition...the strive for excellence...pride and honor...direction...goal oriented decisions...the sense of sensitivity and responsibility of the family members.

Sometimes when I'm still and have nothing to do...I feel lost.

But you know we are strong...and we have to keep moving forward.

More updates later.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Trying...trying really hard to be fit =|

I did the usual swimming routine with my co-mermaid this morning.

I'm now officially 43 Kg. My tummy is back!

I've been trying to eat healthy but obviously I'm eating too much.

Swimming makes me hungry.

I will soon do a lemonade diet once again.

For now I'm sticking with the swimming and jazzercise routine.



I made the portions smaller these morning :

1/2 cup milk + 2 spoonfuls of oats + almonds + 1/2 banana + 1 tsp peanut butter
1 whole egg

While exercising, I'm just finishing up the food I stocked up, and then I will go on a diet again. I'm trying to do something. I will explain later.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Post Master Cleansing - Hay-wired and Unplanned




After Cleanse : 41 Kg
Current : 42.5 Kg

 DIET : My diet has gone hay-wired  Although I'm eating quality food (Big Breakfast and Protein Centered Diet)...I know that I'am eating too much too fast...I might go for a 3-5 day cleansing next week.

EXERCISE : Swimming in the Morning and Jazz Exercise at night, five times a week.

WORK : I'am actively teaching and have mellowed down a little bit on performance. I will be back actively performing once I'm done preparing...I miss the stage.

STUDIES: The 2nd semester for the graduate studies is done; and I've graduated from the other specialization course for voice. I'am currently taking two other courses which should be done in 2 years time.





Saturday, April 13, 2013

Adjusting to a New Life Style

 Managed to meet the deadlines.

Will post more in a few days.

Swimming in the Morning and Fitness Studio at Night.

Adjusting with Food.

Bad Diet past few days : ate a bag of chips and 1 whole bar of toblerone...ate rice...felt so heavy.

Might do a 3 day fast starting today.


 Apple and Cheese
Broccoli, Tuna, Mixed Veggies! Yummy!

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

1st day of counting my food's nutrition


I just got back from the morning swim.

Today's food plan :

30 grams of protein for breakfast
Parmesean Cheese / Tomato         10 grams
2 eggs   (1 yolk)                                 12 grams
Peanut butter with 2 tbsp in bread  10 grams
1 slice bread                                   128 calories

Lunch  = 600 needed calories in a day

Half a can tuna             20 grams protein
1 cup cabbage            41 calories
Juice =  Carrot  1 cup chopped 52 cal
              1 cup orange                  112 cal
              1  Tomato                         11 cal

Dinner = Soup (Pumpkin 1/2 cup mashed,23 cal)

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Dancing Studio Tonight

Love and Kisses*

Monday, April 8, 2013

Adjusting to a "Normal" Routine


(tomatoes, banana, and orange juice)

(My new edgy hair cut. I like it. I don't have the normal teacher look anymore)

I have a couple of songs to record, and students to organize.

Today I had egg, bread, and fruit juice for breakfast; mushroom soup and crackers for lunch. For dinner I think I will do orange juice again.
My exercise routine consists of early morning swim and jazzercise at night. For some reason I'm still bloated. I'm not experiencing lock of jaw anymore. 
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 So I just got back from the jazz exercise. Great ! 
I was so hungry. I had caesar salad, tuna, and soup for dinner. You know I gained back 1 pound so fast!
My tummy is STILL bloated !
Let's see what I can do about it tomorrow.

Ciao Bella

Love and Kisses*

Final Phase of Master Cleansing Diet in Kuala Lumpur


 I  officially shed off 4 kgs in 10 days. Now that the weight is off, time to tone !

I pigged out today and yesterday . Today I had Caesar salad and fruit juice for breakfast. Rojak and pumpkin soup for lunch! I'm bloated. I ate too much too fast. 

These pictures were taken after the swim this morning. Tonight, I'll go to the fitness studio.

Here's the link to the master cleansing guide which I used :

http://mastercleansesecrets.com/step3.php




Saturday, April 6, 2013

Post Master Cleansing - Ready For My First Solid Meal!


I feel scared. I have to go back to solid food again from now on ;  honestly, it's easier for me to just drink the lemon juice everyday than to plan a healthy meal!

All exercises will start again tomorrow !
I'm staying back to finish the deadlines. 

2 more songs till tomorrow! 

Ladies, Wacoal is on sale !
Yesterday I tried Boost Juice for dinner. The banana made the juice a bit sour...I prefer the juice I had from O briens

I will post the master cleansing guide tomorrow!

 Today I'm officialy 40 kgs.

Must plan where to break my "fast" later !

I'm excited ! 



 I decided to break my fast at "Delicious" Bangsar.

My taste buds are a still bit funny...I didn't enjoy my food much... but I ate quite a lot...

I had 

Frosty Lychee & Lime

Caesar Salad
with Anchovies, Turkey Bacon, Poached Egg & Parmesan

 
V Cream of Pumpkin
with Parmesan & Truffle Oil


V Rustic Mushroom with Garlic Bread  


  I also got the probiotics from the pharmacy!

See you tomorrow!

Ciao Marco !

Kisses*



Friday, April 5, 2013

Master Cleansing Graduation - Ha! Ha! I did it ! Hurray!


 10 days of not eating solid food and just drinking a liquid concoction! I did it! ~ Gives myself a hug* ...

I haven't been exercising because I'm working on a project which is due this Monday.

Today Ends my Master Cleansing Detoxification and it feels great to drink orange juice!

Sunkist Oranges makes  wonderful juice...naturally sweet...or maybe I just got lucky...or overly enthusiastic? but really, it's just wonderful! Made me smile and laugh this morning ! ha! ha! ha!

So today is orange juice day and tomorrow I can start taking soups and smoothies...and then from there , gradually take solid food...


 As you can see...I have shrunk! I have exercises scheduled for this week and beyond to tone...

I'm also right on schedule regarding my project. Just two more songs to record and a couple of papers.

I will go for a swim on Monday morning and will take a proper photo. 


I will post the ingredients, where to buy, and how to's instruction soon.
    I have a full teaching day today.

Ciao Bella,
*Kisses

I Had Enough

A lot of people will speculate on what’s happening… And they might think of me shallow and such… But they do not know a thing…not …a…single…thing Because they cannot see beyond my childish grin And they do not know what kind of a woman I’ am for all the things I had to put up with And what I had cover up to make things look so simple… I’ am not shallow. It takes a lot to break my spirit…and I’m telling you…I’m broken. I had

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Last Day of Master Cleansing (10th day) in Kuala Lumpur

This is the morning of my last Master Cleansing Day.
At the beginning of this post I mentioned that my
Current weight is - 97 pounds
and my Target weight is - 86 pounds


I'm now 90 pounds, which according to the online BMI calculator, is just the right weight for me.
The video camera can make you look a little bit more "extra" than you are, so I'm going to have to video myself and decide if I'm happy with my current weight. (I'm a professional singer so this is all important to my job)

I didn't do any exercise at all yesterday as I'm rushing some projects. I'm back on schedule and if I stick to it, I will be able to finish my work on time for the deadline. I don't think I will do any exercise today too. I will just finish up my coaching work and finish up my deadlines.

At the end of this master cleansing posts, I will write a comprehensive guide to what I did during the process. I will also post a before and after picture.

You know, not a lot of people are aware that I'm actually at the midst of a very sensitive period of my life right now.  But I have no time as of the moment to succumb to sadness and frustrations.
You'll  know something is not right once I start doing things a little bit over the top. I tend to use the negative energy to fuel positive actions.
I have to be strong, I have to move forward, I have to get things done ! ....and so please help me God..to do what is right not only for others..but for myself

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Master Cleansing in Kuala Lumpur Day 9 - Preparing to ease out

 I went to midvalley to look for Grade B Maple Syrup. I wasn't able to find it. I ended up getting it again from bangsar grocer.

I bought 2 packs of orange and one more bottle of grade D maple syrup (105 RM)....preparing to ease out!

Tomorrow is the 10th (last) day - April 5. 
Orange Juice Diet on April 6 (Saturday)
I can start having liquid diet - juices and soups on April 7, which is a Sunday.
And Monday I should be moving on steadily to my pescetarian diet. 

As I've said, I'm rushing a few projects . But I think later I can squeeze in 1 hour of exercise. I'm feeling better from my period too! Good !

Kisses*

Master Cleansing in Kuala Lumpur Day 8

I didn't do the salt flush today because I'm not feeling too well due to my "flow".

I didn't even exercise.

I needed to go out to the mall to get something and I ended up buying myself a glass of - tomato + carrot + apple from O'Briens. It was a detour from the lemon diet but I was feeling hungry.

I took the pepperment tea, and now off to bed !

I have a few things to rush up for my deadlines!

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Master Cleansing Day 7 , Kuala Lumpur Malaysia

As I've mentioned in my earlier post, my monthly friend is on a visit and so I'm a bit lethargic.
I didn't do any exercise today except for a couple of stretches.
The detoxification routine went on as usual, the whole day : Morning Salt Water flush and Lemon Juice the whole day.
I'm not taking the tea tonight though , as I suspect it has a bit of caffeine which makes it hard for me to sleep at night.
That's my little girl doing some stretches with me.
3 MORE DAYS TO GO !!!!

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Master Cleansing Day 6

Today is day 6.  Yesterday I had to go to the mall to grab some new pair of goggles and it was torturous. There's this new bakery with lots and lots of great looking bread but I , of course, couldn't eat. In a way I'm proud of myself for having this kind of discipline and self control. 

 There's just one small thing about this fasting, (see day 1 of master cleansing diet) I can't think properly...or rather, I can't concentrate deeply. I have the energy to be physically active and still exercise, but I can't read my books!

I still make sure that I'm 100 percent in my classes, and I'am !

<<<This is my face with eyeliner and a tinge of lipstick. I didn't use any foundation, I think my skin is getting better ! (No edit. Direct from the camera!) 


This morning I was shocked to see how bloated I was so I didn't take the salt solution.
A few hours later , my monthly visitor came and it is no doubt the cause of my being bloated !

I'm loving the new goggles ! The first goggles I got , has this thing for the sun rays so I couldn't see clearly. This goggles is just fine! I can actually see the color of the water and the skies above...and the trees,,,and the birds...and the flowers and the bees...and it's perfect !

I have a strong breast stroke but weak freestyle. But this morning I managed to finish 1 lap in freestyle ! ha!


 


To get things started, I once again joined jazzexercise. It's combined cardio, toning, stretching, and ...maybe strength too?
This is Sharon our instructor ! She's very nice and energetic!

I managed to persuade Lyn to come along. We both took off our shoes and went barefoot, but next time we will be ready!  

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Master Cleansing Day 5 (survived day 4) and Notes About My Sweet Short Legs

I've been craving to eat solid food. But alas I'm on my day five , and just five more days to go ! I'm trying to be extra patient and careful in my classes because I realize I'm feeling a little bit grumpy! I'm taking two days off from exercise. Tomorrow I will start doing my cardio again.

Here is the 10 min abs exercise I'm trying to do everyday !
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 Studying my body , I found out that I need to work on my glutes!
  
How to make your sweet short legs work for you?

 THE NEED FOR FIRMER GLUTES 
AND SLIMMER LEGS 
(do you have short legs?)

My glutes needs work. I have beautiful big glutes but it needs to be shaped. I have a long way to go.
 Some small girls look balanced because their torso and legs are in proportion.
 I have a long torso and short legs. 
I  love my natural physique...I only intend to enhance it! Marilyn Monroe and a lot of beautiful ladies have short legs. I know that with proper dressing, we can create an illusion of being proportionate.
 But I'm not looking for a quick fix so what I'm thinking is :
 If I lift my bum-bums and work on slimmer legs, then I might get a closer look to a proportionate body which the human eye, most of the time, finds appealing.

I managed to drag one friend to the pole routine I'm planning to take on May.
For now, I think I will join jazzercise  again to help out with toning. 

kisses* 

Friday, March 29, 2013

Survived day 3 ! Day 4 today ! Master Cleansing in Kuala Lumpur

My thought processing is slowing down....or maybe it's just lack of sleep.

I do not feel week...but I feel dazed... I have to find out whether it's the diet or I just need more rest. 

I finished the bottle of mapple syrup so I headed down to bangsar grocer to pick up another one and a couple more things.

Total Cost : 120
Juicer 15.20 RM
Bottled water, 2 packs of Lemon, Grade D Maple Syrup

I know it is recommended to get Grade B , but I believe Grade D is the finest I can get here in KL. Besides, I do not know where to get grade B. I even had a hard time looking for the juicer around the local grocery shops.

My class is full today! See you tomorrow!


Thursday, March 28, 2013

Surviving Day 2 and Entering Day 3 (Master Cleanse )

no make up, no edit



I woke up this morning and did my usual swimming routine. My energy is not so bad, I managed to finish my lap quota.

I came back and drank the salt water flush solution.

As you can see, I'm already getting results.


I think I'm loosing weight too fast, which is actually the whole idea of this cleansing.


I have read that the results are not permanent , and that you should find a way to maintain while living on a natural diet, once your done with your program.


I'm putting in a little bit of abs exercise everyday.


Last night I also took the recommended peppermint tea, which I didn't like very much.


I lost my voice recently due to phlegm. 

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

I survived cleansing day 1 - March 28

Important Note:
1. Keep a lot of tissue because you will be visiting the bathroom a lot of times in the morning- Wet Wipes and Dry Ones.
2. Buy the strainer and juicer, it will make your life easier. (I don't have it yet)
3. Try to find purified water, I only managed to get "reverse osmosis processed" water. I'am not sure if it's the same.
4. Distract your self while your drinking the salt water mixture. I was supposed to drink 4 glasses but 
I only took 3 because I felt like puking.




Cost :
Extra Lemon : 14 RM
Water and Tissues : 15 RM


So I did it! I survived yesterday's first cleansing day. I have to admit that every moment I was thinking of food. It wasn't easy.

Today I did the salt flush and it was hell. It felt like drinking sea water. I must have spent an hour going in and out of the bathroom after I jugged down the mixture. So looks like it's working.

So now it's cleansing day 2. I did my exercise this morning and I was so full of energy. 
Later I will post the exact recipe of this cleansing diet.

10 Day Cleansing Diet

10 DAY CLEANSING DIET

I went to bangsar grocer and picked up the things I need for detoxifying. I couldn't find grade B for maple but I found a grade D. It cost me 89 RM. Everything came up to 146 RM. I wonder how long this first batch would last me.

Inside the mall, I noticed how slim some small girls really are. They look great!

  Detoxifying. Spiritually, Mentally and Physicaly.


I'm on a 10 day master cleansing diet, other known as "the lemon fasting". 

I'm going to lock my self up until I finish my work. I have to feel competent again.

Cleansing for more clarity , and to loose unwanted fat.
My skin looks dry, and my hair too. Look at those flabs...and my tummy!
I want to be able to squeeze my arms in without 
having it look like a huge sausage. 
(no makeup, no edit


Current weight : 97 pounds
Target weight : 86 pounds

Mixture:
2 tbsp lemon juice
1-2 tbsp grade B or D Maple Syrup
10 ounce of water = 1 glass
1/10 tsp cayene

Process: 
(6-12 glasses a day , everyday for 10 days)  
(Morning Flush)  730 ml mixed with 1tsp uniodized salt
(Night Flush) Peppermint Tea